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Saturday, January 28, 2006 >> Blown my chance away....

i have officially started working...... u wanna know as what ladies and gentleman??? i am the guy who make sure the inside of the aircraft is clean so that the next batch of passengers doesn't complain that the aircraft is filty..... so yah.... it's acerli great la the work.... at times very tired coz we have to do it really fast but it's also great coz of the people ah.......

so acerli this past three days i had my training..... knowing what i have to do... hands on experience so as to know what is expected of me...... den during this training course mix around with the other trainees who are also waiting for their o level results.... so they were cool....... we keep on laughing when either one of us makes a joke.... den during break also hang out lepak.... they were great coz they werk gerek la basically........... but now all of us separate go to diff teams....... but it was great knowing them ah....... non-stop laughing non-stop disturbing other people....

yesterdae was the last day for my training.....sad ah coz we all know we're gonna separate..... wen things seem so fun den it comes to an end..... but the makcik who was our leader bought for us all tobelrone...i dunoe how to spell it!!! n it wasn't the small one...it was all a full length version.... the makcik so nice...... den seme lepak luar kapal terbang makan.... like there was a kenduri like tat..... so cool......so great......... so todae off.....tmr den hav to werk... at least tmr double pay... wakkakaka....... so todae play soccer with the guyz............ so that's all folks........

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2:40 PM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006 >> The End........

So it's now or nothing...... let me just take this time and fill this post with things that are on my mind.... you know when i just got off thinking about stuff.....

you know as we grow older we will eventually learn about life...... some we can learn through what people say and there are things that we'll learn through experience...... this fragile life is a learning journey all the way....... filled with happiness....... filled with sorrow....... filled with humour........ filled with depressions...... ups and downs........ thats life right?? i guess you would agree...... obviously people would prefer ups to downs.... that's obvious....... but without the downs, we won't learn to aprreciate the things that we have that makes us happy........ we would take things for granted..... downs or shall i say unhapiness are eye openers or reality checks sometimes...... but there are also times when you just can't fit in a reason to why it has to happen to you..... have you ever felt that way??? but nevertheless its during ups that we are okay and fine.... but its downs which makes us remember that we are humans........ who has flaws....... who do mistakes........ who is weak....... fragile.........

when unhapiness kicks in, it may take some time for us to be okay.... that's normal..... some take days...... some take weeks......... some take months....... some take years........ don't be too confident.... some times it takes forever......... what we have i mean our families,our friends, our love partner..... all of them are fragile.... you'll never know when they can just not be there anymore......... when one day you were talking to them.... the next following week you lost them........ it hurts like hell to lose someone you love....... but with time you'll be okay insyallah........but i'm not saying having a relationship is bad.... it's the greatest thing ever in some cases....... think bout this guyz..... the person you least expect to make you feel alive is the one who literally made you feel alive again.... made you focus on your exams...... made you think there is happiness in this world.......... this impossible fact is possible........ i was hit by it....... someone who i least expect to fall in love with me did fell in love with me..... but like i said... we live in such a fragile world.........

i'm not here to brag...... i'm not here to whine...... i just wanna learn..... learn by making mistakes and learning froom them..... but there are times that i don't want to learn........ i do what i think is right..... if what i think is wrong then let me learn from it......... i've taken my friends for granted...... i hated myself for that....... if only i could turn back time and just do it all differently.... but all i can do now is learn from that.......

thank you for taking your time to read my blog....... hope what i say you guyz out there would agree........ if not, you can tag your views...... peace........

btw....happy birthday to all january babies whom i know...like razean faiz,sutiana,neni,wati,phie...... did i leave out anyone??? i hope not...if i did i'm really sori......

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Sunday, January 22, 2006 >> screaming infidelties!!

orite today went out with the guyz in my band.... ariff and faris..... saiful couldn't follow.......... so acerli started the dae with a jam session at the old place BMC........ jam for like 1 and a half hours coz pul had to be somewhere......... yah den went off to orchard......... ariff wanted to buy his cuban cap which he lost in the past.,...... don't lose it again!!!!!! hahhahahhaha...... so yah den just walk around orchard............den at plaza singapura it started.... me n faris was so crazy... we keep on laughing....... at the smallest and stupidest things.......... i'm crazy......... so we hang out like until 9+ before heading home..........so yah..........

btw i reali like this template...... i dunoe why.... it's kinda cool to me.............. so yah........

last werds

i started it again......... i'm a mess i guess........ being strong.... something new for me.... hehe..... so adious guyz........ take care people......... hope man u wins against liverpool...... cmon u manchester united........ bring back the freaking glory to old trafford!!!!

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Wednesday, January 18, 2006 >> Goodbye

did i disappoint you or let you down?
should i be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
cause i saw the end before we'd begun
yes i saw you were blindedand i knew i had won
so i took what's mine my eternal right
took your soul out into the night
it may be over but it won't stop there
i am here for you if you'd only care
you touched my heart you touched my soul
you changed my life and all my goals
love is blind and that i knew when
my heart was blinded by you
i've kissed your lips and held your head
shared your dreams and shared your bed
i know you well i know your smell
i've been addicted to you

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me

i am a dreamer but when i wake
you can't break my spirit it's my dream you take
and as you move on,remember me
remember us and all we used to be
i've seen you cry, i've seen you smile
i've watched you sleeping for awhile
i'd be the father of your child
i'd spent a lifetime with you
i know your fears and you know mine
we've had our doubts but now we're fine
and i love you i swear that's true
i cannot live without you

goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me

and i still hold your hand in mine
in mine when i'm asleep
and i will bear my soul in time
when i'm kneeling at your feet
goodbye my lover
goodbye my friend
you have been the one
you have been the one for me
i'm so hollow baby, i'm so hollow
i'm so, i'm so, i'm so hollow

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8:00 PM

Sunday, January 15, 2006 >>

hey people!!!!!!!!! yeah so actually had a very long dae and i wasn't spending it at home........from 12+ to 12 midnight i was outside......... woohoo........tired sak......... so okay let me update you bout my dae yah...........

so at 1215 met faris at the usual bustop coz we had a jam session with the band....wow jam so early......... usually we jam either at 4 like that or evening time but tis time coz i had to go out with my family so the guyz are so understanding they showed up to jam early.... awwww u guyz caring sey.. gays!!!!!!! wakkakkakak........... so we were actually crazy today coz we keep on laughing and we keep on picking on each other.......... like we have known each other for years but acerli we've been together as a band for only 2 years now.... wow in 2 years we became so close.... that's good yah.......... so played our songs... our original is progressing right now.... juz have to think about the lyrics and a bit more working on it then it would be complete... need to come up with a theme for the song.... love?? break ups??? gerls??? haven't decided yet......... so all and all it was a great jam session............ comfortable playing music with these guyz.... man we are gay...... wakkakakaka.........

orite so we finished jamming at about 315 and at that time my bro called me and told me i had to go seoul garden ferst to tell them there was a change in the reservation......... my sister and abg ipar belanja the falmiy seoul garden..... perut full giler sey after that........ so the people who were there along with me were my mom, my sis and abg ipar of course,abg farid and abg Is....... so apalagi kite makan makan makan mcm mak tak akan masak lagi gitu......... wakkakakka........ but then after that the whole day tk makan ah... nk makan lagi??? nk mampos.......... so yah eat eat eat den my sis say if wanna go chinatown coz there is the chinese new year bazaar rite??? wanna see the lights and the things selling there.... not the food lah coz obviously we cannot eat it rite......... abg farid cannot follow coz he has to go back camp...NS brader.. so change jeans with him coz i was wearing short cargo pants and he was wearing jeans........ so yah.... after that went to suntec city ferst..... walk around there......... just window shopping..... looking for a present for my dear......... i still don't know......sori dear......den before heading off to chinatown we had drinks at coffeebean ferst.........pure choc as alwaes...........

then reach chinatown at like 8 or 9 i can't remember........... wakkakakakka............. den we walk here walk there.......... me n abg Is we looking for watches so we all the way kept our eyes wide open for that.......... i think this year the bazaar bigger ah.....wat do u tink???? it doesn't matter wat u tink.... wakkakkak..........then found this apek selling watches....ma bro bought it for me ah.... thank u so much bro!!!!!!!!!!!! den walk2 again den my sis bought for me t shert.....thank u kakak!!!!!!!!!!!!!! den my dear called she was so tired sey....i mean the way she sound........ so poor thing........ asked her to sleep ferst coz i'll be home late anyway.......awwww miss her....... yah so said goodnight to her and off she went to lalalla land.... i hope she dreams bout me.???!!! wakkakakka......... so den head on home at about 1130.........seme dah penat.......... so yah that was my day yah........

thank u to my abg ipar n my sis for the t shert and the treat at seoul garden..........
thank u to abg rid for the jeans.........
thank u to abg Is for the watch and ring........
thank u for my mom for giving birth to me and for being the best mom ever!!!!!!!!

and u noe in this family potrait it is still missing something........

its missing u my dear.........like what i said in my msg i sent to u........ u noe whats missing here......miss u when your not with me......... n yes i noe u said u miss me too....... u noe i alwaes do n vice versa..........hehehehhe....... can't wait till the next time i see u bebey.......

*This story is just beginning*
*This story will end without you*

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11:59 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006 >> Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha!!!!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!!!!!!!!!

TO ALL MUSLIMS!!!!!!!!

AND TODAY IS 9 JANUARY!!!!!!!

YEAH!!!!!!!!

i love u my dear and love the new nick name u gave me..... hehehheheh

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Friday, January 06, 2006 >> berthday bash!!!

yeah my birthday is over but it was the best ever.......with people's wishes....a gerl's presence and her sweetness to do something for me.........orite so as usual let me do the honours and fill you in on wat happen.....

yesterday,05/01/2006 is the day i will remeber for as long as i live........ orite so actually decided to celebrate my birthday and our 7 month anniversary together coz we can't meet on our actual anniversary day....... so met her at 2 o'clock in the afternoon and went on to plaza singapura..... went there took the NEL way....wow singapore is linked thorugh the freaking MRT..... this is singapore so appreciate it......... so yah went to plaza singapura to watch KING KONG!!!!!!!! hahhah the movie was cool especially the part where King Kong fought with three T-Rex....... man it was so cool!!!!!!! so actually before watching it went to eat at macdonald coz we miss the mcspicy so much...... hahhahahhaha...... den after finish eating she gave me my present from her... it was an adidas pack... there is a deoderant spray,perfume and wristband with a watch..... and i was so speechless....... it was the best present i have ever received!!!!!! she's so cool....... and so sweet!!!!!!!! and there was a card which came a long with it........ and wat she wrote just made my heart stop and made me want to hug her......... i love her so much!!!!!!!!! thank u my dear!!!!!!!!! so much!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

so after watching the movie went to walk around at orchard for awhile........met shaker while walking there....he was werking......... den wen at the mrt coz we were heading home met fairuz.......so then reached sengkang and walked to her house from compass point..........wasn't far at all............ den she told me to go up to her house and i was like why........ den she went in and went out with a cake in hand...... i was like awwww!!!!!!!! you are the best!!!!!!! after that went home....... den reach home ate the cake with my mom and abg Is...... tat was my day....... the best ever day!!!!!!!

so today had a jam session with the guyz since the promnite........ so it was enjoyable with lots of laughs and just playing music and making one...... what u need in life is your family, your gerl, your band and your friends........ a saying from a band member and friend saiful F....take care ful and get well soon......... so right now i can't reallly complain much coz what i have and need is in my hands....
-my family
-My sweet gerl
-my band
-my friends......

thank you to all the people who wished me yah.... u guyz rock very hard!!!!!! \m/ \m/

and that was what my honey got me!!!!!!!!

and specially to my one and only ms nana.......thank you dear for the wonderful day......... thank you for the pesent....... thank you for the cake......... thank you for the card......... THANK YOU....... and i love you bebey!!!!!!! hehehehe.....

Joey outt!!! \m/ \m/

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11:59 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006 >> Bored at home.....

hey wassuupp........ actually see my blog and i felt the urge to write something.... actually been waiting for that job to call....call come on call!!!!!!!! yah so lately been sitting in my room and writing songs..... but you know writing songs are fun....seriously........ but there is it's down side.... for me, i feel that sometimes what i write comes back to haunt me....n it sometimes makes me not want to write anymore...... so yah but i'm still am....enjoy it..........

18??? is it a big deal??? i guess so...i don't know..... i have better things to think of other than the privileges of being 18.........

2 more days till 18.....hey maybe it's going to be a good thing being 18........

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Sunday, January 01, 2006 >> Happy New Year!

Yeah!!! Happy New Year people!!!! may all acquintance be forgot lalalalla... okay i dunnoe the song but i only know the start.....hahahhahahhaha............

so yah 2006 is here baby......new year's resolution??? i dun have any... never had before so i guess this years no different........... but i have to say 2005 is the best year and also the most entertaining........ the band........o levels....getting a gerl(tats the best by the way)......... band wise more band time than the past year i have to say.... more talking bout wat we're doing with the band... so tat has to be a great thing for 2005 for me.....

then there is the freaking o levels....argh!!!! stressful times indeed.... the most stressful period of my life........seriously.....so now its all over...........jobless........

and the best part about 2005....u guyz know it....getting a gerl tat i love so much..... wakkakakak....... seriously after countless rejections......... i got a gerl tat i alwaes wanted... she has the character of wat i've been looking for.......... i have found the gerl tat i've dream bout having....she made me feel things i have never felt before as in feelings i mean..........so thats the bonus bout 2005.........

so yah............hapi 2005....here comes 2006....... hope it would be a great year for me, my gerl, my band n my friends.......... happy new year guyz.......

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