Thursday, April 28, 2005 >> i cant forget u sweetie!

okay today is really not my day..... let me tell all u fuckers why..... the following happened to me before 8 am todae.....

• got a bad news from my math teacher about my test.
• tmolo have to stay back after flag raising for a stupid fuckin thing!
• did the wrong year for my physics tys hmwrk
• didnt bring my completed graph

what the fuck....that i keep saying stupid shits and it was still early morning! k den lets stop talking bout this stupid shit!!!!

okai then skul okay okay la....but at the end of the day our last period which ws english....jumiah didnt entered the class.......it was heaven!!!!! den afta skul went to eat ferst.....den off home.... skali on the way home saiful msg suro tron jumpa dier and areeeff.......so okay la...lepak jap.... tok tok tok bout band stuff den faris pon came...... discuss this and that den went home at 6.....tats all la my dae....fuckin irritated rite now la......

you still fucking linger in my head..... get out!!!! fuck off.....i hope bleeding hearts shed no tears!!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005 >> Hahahhahah

wow i am so damn tired.....dunnoe why....maybe it's becaues i had a very long dae...hmmmmm.... yah its tuesdae i did have a long dae.....fucking la!!!!!!


so skul was okay......highlights onli some ah...one is during english..... got skit....den daryl's group ah...k the story ended with old ladies tat can see a handsome gay guy but cannot see a policeman...seriously...policeman alwaes wear uniform wat!!!! den i say tat den skali jumiah was lyk laughing lyk hell n i was like was tat so damn funny??? den another highlight during chemistry ah....had practical in the lab..... den finish our experiments i wanted to do something with my shoe wic i forgot wat den amli who was sitting beside me called me den i banged my head against the bench wen i was lifting my head....den amli laughed like 10 whole fuckin minutes after that den ask me if i was okay... hahhaha fucking sak.... okay den had english remedial.... was so damn boring!!!!!!!!!! really!!!!! den PE....NAFA 5 ITEMS!!!! passed only situps shuttle run n sit n reach!!!!! fucking shit!!!! okay den reached home at 6.....now so tired cant do homewerk! bye adious fuckers!!!!


ur such a stereotype! u dun go for guyz lyk us! u dun go for guys wit hearts! u dunnoe how much i cried.........i am tired of hurting myself with u.... but i cant help it...each time i wanna forget u u are always there!!!! f u c k!!!



Sunday, April 24, 2005 >> GREAT GIG!!!!

GREAT! MAGNIFICENT! yeah went to the gig at ELIAS CC yesterdae which was 23rd of April.... went with a bunch of my friends........u want to noe who??? i went with Areeeff Saiful Faris Zul Faiz Zulaiha Amirah n Hawa...... nvr been to a gig with so many friends...usually only about two to four people only.....wat a great gig.....like usual....so many punks........yeah was okay with tat..... then reach there about 330 but haven start.....it was suppose to start at 3 but delayed till 4.....mix of punk rawk, ska n hardcore bands....... started of With Kate of Kale...... punkrawk!!!!!!! den got one power metal band.....Ars Nova!!! they payed a song by Cradle Of Filth n a song by Arch Enemy!!! WE WILL RISE!!!! den thought did not want to mosh....but hmmm......faiz was so damn eager to bodysurf....... he did it two times.....nice one faiz!!!!!! yeah!!!!! sad thing faris had to go early.....tk gerek ah mosh tk da dier......so den DEAR ARSON(hardcore-disco band)!!! took the stage.....den apa lagi....me areeeff faiz and zul moshed!!!!!!!! yeah best ever!!!! but of coz got hurt a little.....got punched den got one guy wanna body surf skali he landed directly on my head....lucky never blacked outt...... zul's n faiz's ferst gig n they had a blast!!! moshed until we high sey!!!! den i got a high five with dear arson's bassist who mirah was noisy about......yes mirah dier hensem!!!! den after moshing lay down at one corner.....my head was reali spinning n i was reali dizzy...... face hurt a bit after the punch.....but tats moshing man!!!! den went home with mirah zu faiz n zul...... n tat was yesterdae..... great gig!!!!! btw i started doin it again but onli a little!!! hahhaha

bye guyz take care cheers!



Wednesday, April 20, 2005 >> quotes from songs by Taking Back Sunday!!!

You can't make them want you They're all just laughing
in the end it's always the same you're still gone
your Kissable and quiet
Remind me not to ever think of you again
Don't hold your breath because you'll only make things worse!
I never meant it to be like this
I can't say I blame you but I wish that I could I'm sick of writing every song about you
Don't call my name out your window, I'm leaving I'm sick of writing every song about you
Well this is the last night that you'll be keepin' secrets from me don't worry sweetie cause I already know
Regardless you know that I'll still wait for your call
this is the last time i still wait for your call
i swear, you have no idea The jealousy that made me thinking
Take the time to talk about it Think a lot and live without it
the only thing that I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back
Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you



Tuesday, April 19, 2005 >> and i do'nt think you know what u'll be missing

Just think of this and me as just a few of many things
to lie around to clutter up your shelves

haiz....todae is tuesdae.....okai....physics was orite....den malay reali enjoy it.......can study during malay lesson....wasted no malay lesson tomoro....den math......haiz......okay la can pay attention...den english.....it is not that bad reali....tomoro hav to present our skit yah....hahhahah.... cnfrm merepek.....but yet still fun........den chem.....shit i just pass my test....15/30.....fuck....haiz.......den humans....ms wong was absent....hahhahaha.....so relek chill abiz2.........den afta skul......apa lagi rembat rahu ah......two times........salah silap tolong maaf kan rahu.....kao dah rembat aku bila b'dae aku skrg kao nyer turn plak lah.....jangan takot nanti kiter rembat yang lain insyallah.......den english remedial.......ms serene siew took us.....is her correct??? not sure.......but she is way nicer than jumiah.....and i realise that she actually has a sweet smile but if only she smiles more.....smile more lah.... got a nice face alreadi....... den afta that PE.....haiz 2.4 km run.....one word...FAIL!!! i knew all along lah!!!! then after that went home straight coz quite tired.......afta tat went home with shafiq and we had a chat ah....bout personal tings all that.......he is me bestest fren i have to say.....frenz since secondary 1....hope nothing will change......so yah tats all for todae.....take care you fuckers!!! hahah k sowie....take care people!!!!


I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cuz I don't think that you know what you've been missing


Just forget me it's that simple
Just forget you it's not that simple





Sunday, April 17, 2005 >> maybe i am just not good enough??!!

hmmmmm todae is a sunday.......17 april.......acerli i had no plans for todae....den my mom say ah follow her go GIANT bedok coz wanna buy groceries......i was...hmmmmm okay sure..... den my mom ask my bro(abg Is) to follow also ah....my other bros seme kuar uat hal sndiri...... so went to bedok.......took 18 from the bustop near my home...... reach there went to yasalam to eat ferst ah.....but me at there see gerls gerls see me tats all..... hahahha...serious got some pretty gerls and some minahripz wic nice to look at but sakit di hati....... why isnt tere anymore relek nye gerls??? haiz....zaman zaman........ den afta eat weent to GIant la.....go round2 buy tings den finish.....lazy to elaborate.... den all around so many couples sial......bingit sak........ den my bro print pict of him and his gerl lagi sakit hati aku.......... sampai bila aku nk tgk gerl jer sak..... haiz....... nevermind its okai.........so tats my dae la.....



Saturday, April 16, 2005 >> love the place hate the owners!!!!

hey hey......okai its a saturdae.....yeah.....a break from skulz!!!! yahoo la dey!!!!! okai nothing has happen todAe so i wont update bout todae oriTe..... so lets update bout yesterdae okay????


fridae 15th april 2005......... skul as usual ah.......had chemistry practical.....practicals ah cool man but when it reaches the writing part to wRite what we observe....that's not cool....... den humans at AVA...apahal ntah.....den we all keep laughing ak........ not paying attention...... why pay attention when she keeps talking bout things we don't need to know about...... yah den went for fridAY prayers.....after that got malay remedial so had to go back skul after fridae prayers.... went back with faris khalis syamir zain shafiq zul n saiful faz.......den tot had to do werk but den filza like had a so called counselling session.....she asked whats our motive in school la n why we won't shut up in class.....but then she say she will try to make our malay lesson at the lab coz tere is where we all can do our work quitely........ hahaha serious sak!!!!! yah then after the remedial went home that at 5 meet the guyz for JAMMING SESSION!!!!!! yah this time went to aljunied bmc...... we want to go somewhere else other than our usual place ah...... there the equipment was so damn good and the mics whoa.....u can hear each others voice clearly.....but but but........the owners are fucking not nice..........u cannot play loud.........u cannot shout....... u cannot brIng drinks inside............u cannot fuck....u cannot bleed........ u cannot this and u cannot that....... if u realise they have so much fucking stupid rulez........ so lame!!!! love that place but hate the owners.........n yah we tried making our second original song yesterdae.....we had came up with what we want to sound like.....but each haven come up with the actual tunes each of us wanna play.... mayb with more jam sessions this song will be completed.... hopEfully it is going to be easy like sacrificial promise......hmmmmmm......after we jam went to have a drink at the coffee shop beside the jam place after that went home....thats all........


GERLS POSSESS ME BUT THEY'RE NEVER MINE......
GERLS POSSESS ME BUT THEY'RE NEVER MINE......



Tuesday, April 12, 2005 >> Your just a reminder of what i cant have.......

okai....tuesdae 12 April 2005....... started off with physics..... shit man i got only 11 out of 20 for my MCQ test..... hate it!!! i tot i did better......haiz whats done is done....... so yah after that had mother tongue.....yeah went to the comp lab did our werk there...... yeah..... filza is soo gerek!!! the best teacher so far...... den math...... yah okay okay ah......not that draggy....draggy??? is that even a word??? nevermind...... after recess...... english!!!! ENGLISH LESSON + JUMIAH = BORING!!!!!! hahah serious ah..... den chemistry......after english confirm we all will be very sleepy!!!! so chemistry was tiring den add with humanities after that.... disaster!!! den had the english remedial which i still haven found its benefits........ then PE.....ow was not around got another teacher.... i keep shouting at her play soccer soccer soccer but in the end we played floor ball..... i dunnoe why dinee likes the game its boring....but if u play in a smaller group and with ur frenz maybe is okie....... so wasn't that tiring ah PE...... so tats my day....hahahhaha...... tomolo is da werst day of the week!!!!! 3 periods of english!!!!!! argh!!!!!


.you are just a reminder of what i can't have.reminder that i am not good enough. so how can i forget you??? hmmmmm..... i don't know... all the things we could be if only you took the time to notice me!!!!



Monday, April 11, 2005 >> whats wrong with me???

sowie u guys....haven't been updating..... dun ask me why.... i am full of dunnoes...... i am not goin to update my life.....cause i dunnoe who i am rite now........i dont know who saiful johan is anymore......i know i am not me....but i cant change......its like i dunnoe who i am reali.....outside i may look orite but inside i am totally lost.........i dunnoe who i am....i dunnoe how to change back to the way i am.....i am soo damn stupid.....i'm a shithead........i laugh in class like i am a maniac.... i only wish i can laugh my life away....wait not my life....just sumtimes i just wanna laugh.....i make jokes that are so stupid.....why??? who likes me this way??? do i want gerls to notice me tis way......... hahahha.............i just dunnoe animore.......apologise to my frens bout myself.... i wanna be more serious........so tis is godd bye.........SOOO LONG AND GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!



Wednesday, April 06, 2005 >>

i'm sorry.......i'm sorry if i couldn't be there to listen to you......to make make you smile........to cheer you up......to be a friend............to help you.......to be there when no one can be there with you......to treat you well...........it's all because i am tryin.....tryin to stop loving you......stop liking you.... cause i cant do it anymore.......but its hard........your image is alwaes there......can you help me forget you cause your name is not worth mentioning anymore.........why cant u just see...... but i'm tryin.....i'm tryin........I'M TRYIN!!!!! I'M TRYING!!!!! I'M TRYING!!!!!!



Tuesday, April 05, 2005 >>

D E P R E S S I N G

E M O T I O N A L

DID I TOOK U FOR GRANTED OR DID YOU???

YOU JUST DUNNOE WHAT U'LL BE MISSING WITHOUT ME.......

WHY WUD SHE PUT ME THRU SUCH TORTURE....I WUD GIV MY LIFE FOR HER....SHE CAN GO TO HELL!!!!!

YOU WERE THAT ONE PERSON I WUD LOVE TO FORGET BUT BE REMEMBERED AS A FREN.......

WHY DO I STILL WANTING YOU??? AM I SO BLIND TO SEE YOU WONT EVER EVER SEE ME!!!!

HOME IS WHERE I FEEL EVERYTHING IS OLRITE TODAE....... I DoNT WANT TO SEE OTHER PEOPLE OTHER THAN MY FAMILY....... I DONT FEEL OLRITE....I DUN FEEL OKAY....... NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL........



Monday, April 04, 2005 >> torture!!!!!!!

aaarrrrggghhh!!!!!!!! fuck la.....i am soo fucked up!!!!!!!!! why why why why why why????????
i cant figure it outt why........


okay okay..........soo todae was mondae.....i was soo damn tired........started off with POA so it was okay la......ms lai was orite......den humans....so damn boring.....den malay.......filza didnt come so talk talk talk!!!!!! den math...............ho wei wei is starting to be irritatin....she is havin a mood swing everybody else is suffering got scolded........den humans again.....kekek sak we all....... mepek maut maut.........den assembly bout STD......soo borin..........we learn all bout it during sec 2............so borin..........i noe bout it la.....n yah i wun have sex okay....happy!!!!!! ya allah bdk2 ni!!!!!!!!! bodoh tol ah...........den afta skul had to do a cme project at shafiq's house........ n here i wanna say thank you to shafiq for a chat we had.......brothers stay forever!!!




ITS TORTURE!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS TORTURE!!!!!!!!! ARGGGHHH............ DON'T YOU KNOW THAT IT'S TORTURE EVERYDAY KNOWING THAT I CANT HAVE YOU!!!!! DON'T YOU KNOW!!!!! DON'T YOU KNOW!!!!!!! IT'S A DAMN TORTURE ON MY BEATED BROKEN HEART..........I DON'T THINK I CAN TAKE IT ANYMORE........DON'T YOU KNOW THAT IT'S TORTURE EVERYDAY KNOWING THAT I CAN'T HAVE YOU!!!!!!! TORTURE!!!!!!!

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