Thursday, March 31, 2005 >> haiz so long sey todae......

okay okay....1 2 3 goo.......hahhahahha....k i'm lame.......orite been a bit busy so no time to play the computer..... so yah....on wednesdae which was yesterdae i recorded the only one thing with rahu dinee and amli came later.......okai acerli i'm tired so not goin to tell the whole story....so when recording one of my strings gave way.....so called saiful to borrow his guitar.....so meet him and his classmates at near 160 tere la...we recorded very fast....... a bit kanchong i must say...... went home at 10 at nite....in the bus i thought that i was thankful to be surrounded by supprtive frenz fun frenz and understanding frenz....especially my band members.....hahhahah...haiz....that afternoon got CIP at kampung senang wat la also...... old folks place ah.....their crib.....during our mini performance for them me n rahu sang only one but then we need to play another song so i played GSF.....i accidetally said the werd hell.......i look at ho wei wei i tink she heard it.... but not if they undastand...i dont think they do....hahhahaha.... so okai tat was wednesdae.....


den todae.......they made an announcement the only thing was extended.....fuck u councillors of prss!!!!!!! hmmmmm.........started with physics so it was okay........den humans was soo borin........den malay was cool went to the lab.......yah so den math..........ho wei wei ah....dunnoe what to say animore ah bout her......... den POA....ms lai is damn fun man......she teach can undastand and she teach so cool that i want to learn..........den english........haiyoo.......all good things do come to an end......then after skul got math reinforcement class.... haiyaa...... instead of me teaching dinee she teach me some den me teach her some den wen both dunnoe ho wei wei teach....haiz.....kelakar la........okai so tat was my day........wen home damn tired so i slept.......haiz...okay la....in awhile gonna study for history test 2molo........take care u guyz......



i thought u'd never leave my side.....you were just that precious lie i alwaes thought u were.......you led me on to like you and you leave me here stranded..... you led me on!!! sounds famliar to that someone??!! but i dont blame you for walking away!!! sapa yang terasa dierlah yang bersalah.... those who feel i am referring to them they are the ones who are guilty of breaking hearts!! i just write what i feel.......are you guilty of breaking hearts??? can you help me forget you cause your name is not worth mentioning anymore!!!!! love this phrase that i made!!! the best ever!!! i hate the way i feel tonite coz it makes me realise i need you!!!



Tuesday, March 29, 2005 >> need to record only one tomorrow!!!

hey......rawk on people reading my blog....tanks for stopping by and giving sometime to read my blog......tanks again.......Okay....so actually i'm sick....no not sick of anyone....i am sick....been having a headache running nose and i keep coughing....my normal sickness.....the only ting i will fall sick with is this three.......but the headache is gone........juz the running nose and cough..... its getting irritating.......


orite so todae was okay......but when i heard that there was english remedial at 2 pm i was lyk wat da hell.....i hav to rush home to get my PE tshirt....haiyoo..... skul was okay.....but i feel that now we have more werk than before.....haaachiuw!!!! sori........hahhahah.....i'm very detail......k i dun want to tok bout skul much coz dunnoe what to say.........hahaha.....yah after skul rushed home....reached skul again at about 2.25....me and kwang nam came at the same time....lucky got a fren .....hahhahahayah den PE.....the most lamest session ever!!!!!we just throw the fuckin soft ball ball for half an hour.....so stupid.....and the funny part that makes it a bit not dull is tat Terry threw the ball two times out of the skul....hahahha....lucky we retrieved the ball.....or Ow will be so irritatin....hahhahha....so yah tats it for my day........adious amingos.....


its sad that your alwaes blind to the ones you love.....they will never see you....they will not know that your there with a heart that has fallen for them.....they saw you as only a person.......this is what i observed and thought about........maybe its true....maybe its not...... sometimes gerls just don't see "how much you mean to me".........love that phrase......used them a lot when i am writing something.......where is my way??? issit full of lies sorrows rechazas or just plain loneliness???? whats the worst that i could say??? so long and good night.....SO LONG AND GOOD NIGHT!!!!! can you please help me forget you cause your name is not worth mentioning anymore!!!



Sunday, March 27, 2005 >> beating heart baby!!!

okie....whoa....haven updated for quite awhile.....yah coz mix tired and no time equals no time to update blog.......okie i'm lame...i noe....orite....so i dunnoe where to start....lets just get the just of the past two days so i mean fridae n saturdae....just the highlights orite.......

k fridae public holidae so yes no skul!!! went to the mosque for fridae prayers......then went to eat coz never had breakfast.....nor lunch....so went to eat....den at 6 went jamming.....hahah.....okay2.....we started off awkwardly but okay2 la.....yah.... made a video...no lah kidding.....hahhahaha.......so yah tats fridae.....lyk i said,......no time to update my blog....


then saturdae.....at 5 went to play soccer....so before tat tried to make out the lyrics coz i was supposed to do it.....very hard sey......den played soccer...afta tat lepak kat Al-Salihin.....my bro also lepak tere with his frens...haiyoo.....yah then 915 we start to go back ah.....den went back so damn tired sey...afta doing the neccessary tings.....used the comp to watch the england match....... while watching did the lyrics again.....finished everything except for the chorus.....but tis is only the ferst draft u noe.....i haven feel the satisfaction yet.....


okay tats my update....not goin to tok bout todae coz todae i am juz chillin at home doing my homewrks...tats all.....orite people........

BY THE WAY....DO CHECK OUT THE PICS FROM MY TRIP TO KUALA LUMPUR.....GO TO "LINKS" THEN GO TO "PHOTOS"....DO CHECK IT OUT!!!


can you help me.forget you.coz your name is not.worth mentioning animore.



Tuesday, March 22, 2005 >> i am proud of myself......

hhahahah.....i am proud of my-fucking -self........so fuck you if u hate me or dislike me in some way!!!!


orite.....juz gonna recap bout todae...tuesdae.....wat date??? 22 march issit??? okai......so okai luckily for physics mariam nvr check da holidae assignments coz i nvr did the section Cs.........hahhaha......i noe i noe....i shud hav.....so den mother tongue....filza has a blog!!!! hahhaha....i was laughing wen she said go to her blog.....cant believe she has a blog but its for class werk ah not her personal blog...but i tink it is??? i dunnoe......den eng....haiyoo....boring.....jumiah keep laughing to herself.....crazy freak....yes she's not coming on wednesdae n thursdae but she alreadi set some werk....but at least dun need to see her face..... den comb human....haiz....miss wong....wat da hell are you teaching us?????


yah den had PE in the afternoon.....the others did nt have coz their teachers went for course...... why mr ow didnt go also.....but at least we played soccer....so its nt bad...n bad at all..... okai tats all for todae.....gonna watch After School Rocks in 10 mins time....so take care you guyz!!!!


i am proud of myself cause now i can stop myself from trying to find someone....i've stop..... i dun need anyone rite now.....maybe its for the best hopefully nothing bad happens.....

In the beautiful werds of Adam Lazarra:Friends are everything......they are the ones who will keep you breathing,who will keep you going.....



Friday, March 18, 2005 >> KL good!!!

hey hey people....okay tis is goin to be a long one coz be updating my trip to KL.....

okai....so went to KL on mondae morning.....took a bus ah....den in da bus dey gav us food for breakfast.....dey gav Chicken rice.....okai ah coz i was quite hungry so yah.....den reached KL at about 3+ i tink....hahha dun recall.......yah den afta alighted from the bus went to catch a taxi to go to the hotel to check in.....yah so afta checking in and all tat went out lah!!! went to Berjaya TimeSquare.....hahah.....da rollercoaster in a mall was closed....dun ask me why i also dunnoe......juz walk around didnt buy anitin........so afta tat went to eat dinner at a Hainanese Chicken RIce restaurant......it was damn good!!!! it is located along bintang walk if u wanna noe....so tat was mondae.......
den tuesdae.......ate breaKfast buffet at the hotel....its a buffet so ate alot la........den 1030 took the bus to GENTING!!!! hahhah.......yah.......i slept in da bus....dunnoe why i was so sleepy...mayb bcoz of da breakfast....den reach tere took the CABle CAR to the GENting place.....get wat i'm tryin to say???!!! hahahha.........den at genting was quite cold la....okai2 la......den me n my bro went to take two rides....the space shot wic is a bit lyk the G force.....and the corkscrew........one ride took us about an hour to lline up and then it last for onli less than 5 mins.....,went to meet up wit my sis n bro-in-law at coffee bean.....yah tere n here is not diff at all i still ordered the pure chocolate......yah so afta tat went back to KL at about 7+.......den went to CHINATOWN where i bought many tings....will not say wat dey are by the way......we walk lyk 3 rounds of tat night market........my legs were so aching!!! tat had dinner atne up but the ride will be less den 5 mins....(wat da hell!!!) yah den afta spending time at the amusement MAULANA restaurant....my family noes where tis is....hahhahah....den went back to the hotel.....tired man!!!!!! tat was tuesdae!!!!
k den wednesdae....went to KLCC!!!!!!!! took a lot of pics but didnt buy nitin coz quite expensive man the things!!!! wanted to went the tower but the tickets sold out!!!! stupid!!!!! k den went to da coffee bean at KLCC........coffee bean again!!!!!! miss spending time at tat place with my frenz!!!! yah so spend time at KLCC den went bck to the hotel to rest for awhile......den went to chinatown again!!!!! to buy tings again!!!!!haiz....and yes tired again!!!!!!! den went to hav dinner at a place....i forgot where......
okai now thursdae the last dae!!!!went to walk at bintang walk....went to LOT 10 all tat.....juz to waste time coz the bus was leaving at 530.......so late!!!! den seat at coffee bean for at lot 10....coffeebean for the third time.........den was seating den the two guys from black eyed peas walked pass.......taboo and wat apl.de.ab??? dunnoe how to spell ah......I WANTED FERGIE!!!!! FERGIE!!!! HEY MAMA!!!!! hahahha....yah so den went to Saloma tHeatre to take the bus......at 530!!!! okai i am so lazy now so i am juz goin to say i reached home at about 2 am!!!!!


okai done on the recap of my trip.,...hapi reading!!!! AND JUZ WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR....I AM SAIFUL JOHAN!!! NOT SAIFUL FAZRIE!!!!!! GET THAT THRU UR HEADS!!!!!!!! THIS BLOG BELONGS TO SAFUL JOHAN aka SAIJOEE!!!!



Sunday, March 13, 2005 >> my last post before i go to Kuala Lumpur!!!

wat is up people who reads my blog.......k i'll do a quick recap okai.....


yesterdae went to da gig at NAFA campus 3 with arep n zu......free dok....my bro was tere!! very tankful for my bro u noe......hahhaha.....so absically it was a great gig......all hardcore but got one ska band......poop whizzie......like da lead singer.....to me la eh....she was pretty and had a great voice....a little bit lyk gwen stefani.........hahhahah.....okai....oh yah and state of grace perform better than da last gig tat i went to.......den tot wanna go home at 11 den got tis band dear arson.....dunnoe la da name....arep say tats da name....arep keep sayin dey are good....den wen dey were about to perform ma bro came to me say dis band is very good....so i stay ah longer.....da singer is a disco freak but sings in a hardcore way....he is also like gentle lembut type but he sings in a hardcore way....got an afro u noe!!!.....tats one example of dun judge a book by its cover yah.......hahahahahaha.............yah so tats it la basically.......dear arson very gd man......haiz..... get da feeling wanna jam....hahah....arep are u listening???? but i stick to my 3 weeks ting....hahahaha........


okay 2molo i am goin to Kuala Lumpur!!!!! goin wit one my bro and ma sis and ma brother-in-law!!!!! so todae got to sleep over at ma sis house....wit my cats!!!!!! yeah......hapi tat i am goin to see those two crazy cats!!!!! hahahha...so people if u msg me wen i am at KL dun count on me to reply coz i'll be at KL.... even if i am bringin my hp but still....dun waste ur 5 cents la guyz.....so gonna miss you all.......cant spent time wit u all during tis holidae...but i am also worried a bit......got so much hmwrk....dunnoe if i can do it all....guarantee i cant....s0o okai la......gonna miss my crew!!!!! hahahhaha..........take care u all.......i noe u all wun miss me coz duh who am i rite but i will.......as if i am goin for long....hahhaha......so tis isssit la....the end!!!!!!!



Saturday, March 12, 2005 >> going to gig!!!

okay i am goin to try and make tis short......okay so i woke up at about 1030 i tink...dun remember..... i quickly msged shafiq and ask wen is he goin out....den he say 1120....man so damn early!!!! yah den i quickly meet him to giv his gift....HAPPY B'DAE SHAFIQ!!! been in da same class wit him since sec 1.....and it was never boring!!!! yeah!~!!! okay so later meetin up wit arep n zu to go to da gig....man ma bro go alreadi...ble minta tompang.....he perfoming so mite as well gi ngan dier kan...tk yah bayar transport........hahah yeah......n yah i am going to KL on mondae....hopfully tomolo i post a new post b4 i go...wait....post a new post....is tis right??? lyk kind of weird looking........okay la nvm.......adious ppl......


if i am nonsenese its bcoz u made me tis way wit all ur lies!!!!!!



Thursday, March 10, 2005 >>

da holidayz are near....i am going to Kuala Lumpur for the march holidays.....yeah....at last out of singapore for awhile....at least see another country for awhile is okay la.....and away from my singapore life.....hahhahahhaha.....


so todae was quite great......mariam did not come.....relief teacher enters we had fun!!!! hahahha....the perfect equation!!!!! okay now i am lame!~!!!!! okay den humans.....hate......malay went to da library....our skul nye library mcm lame gitu.....my whole secondary life it has never change......so boring.....lucky dis yr last yr....make a new exciting library la bdh!!!!!!! okay den math....gt my report card.....got 4 red marks means fail marks la!!! quite dissappointed acerli...... den ho stupid put all my attitude needs improvement....ferst time sey a teacher tick tat box.......fuck her man!!!!! den poa.....fun as usual....den jumiah!!!!! SO DAMN BORING!!!! okay tat was my fuckin day in my fuckin skul!!!!! fuck off!!!! saturdae goin gig.....hopefully if arep doesnt cancel again!!!



all i want is to be juz frenz....but wenever i tok to u i get angry....tink bout all the shit u did to me!!!! so all i can say is....now wat is important is no longer gerls......its my crew.....my frenz.....in da werds of Taking Back Sunaday's lead singer Adam Lazarra" friends are everything! they are the only thing that can keep u going and keep u breathing"........so i am not sorry animore.....i am not sori for juz bein frenz......i am not sori tat we end up juz frens.........i am not sori for wat has happen to my life.....i am not sori for havin all my frenz ard me each dae........i will never get tired of them....and all my new frenz........ppl i get to noe juz dis yr.....i am not regrettin tat i met u all..........gerls do not own my life!!!!!!! i wun die witout them.....mayb i need sumone but someone who undastands!!!!! adious peepz....ponder my werds!!!!!!



Tuesday, March 08, 2005 >> Keep It Short n Sweet!!!!

hey....haven been updating my post......its bcoz of a mix of laziness,busy,and notin to say all at the same time......hahhahahah.....sori la......and ppl keep sayin its boring......jgn tgk la kalo borin dolz!!!!! wakwakwakwakz.....jokin onli la!!!!!


okai todae is tuesdae 8th of march 2005......okai.....started da dae wit phy....okay la da lesson....den malay....okay la as usual enjoyed malay lessons.....so fun.......den math....boring!!!! afta recess english.....jumiah is such a freak now.....she is reali making english miserable to learn......haiz.....den chemistry.....i dunnoe why.....i paid da most attention to tat lesson.....den during hist didnt paid attention at all.........i hate combine humanities!!!!!!! hate the teacher and the subject!!!!!!haiz....sos tats all ah........
den in da afternoon....yes had PE.........luckily it wasnt tat tiring.....we had to run 3 rounds half of dan field........den did high jump.......I WANTED JAVELIN..........serve me rite for sayin tat its goin to be high jump.....haiz....stupid me.....okai so tats my dae....DEAL WITH IT!!!!!!


LIES!!!!! is tis werld fill with lies???? is my life filled with lies??? are the gerls i know are all lies????? questions in my head.........u wun noe wat feelings burning deep inside of me......i hoped for you to come back....but i dont now coz u are filled with lies.......n all of this is a waste of time!!!!!!!! u go for looks than heart!!!!!!



Sunday, March 06, 2005 >> most tiring day!!!

whoa what a day.........its been a long day sey for me.......k let me start from the start.....

So i woke up at 1045.........bangun je my mom suro gi kedai....beli mkn......my other bro seme ngah tidur so i hav to go....haiz.......so went at 1145......went to afgahnistan THE FAMILY RESTAURANT NOT THE COUNTRY LAH!!!!!! so den ate wen i reached home....after eating i went to meet syahiran coz he want to pass me the soccer ball and cone......den tot mite as well meet faris but den he say 130.....haiz.....den 1+ before 130 saiful kol me....he say nobody told him da time was changed....mepek la!!! lucky it was just minor and mean tat me n faris will be late for soccer.........den waited for rahu's band to jam den we jam la......he usin our favourite room....... man we played every song we noe......it was damn tiring.......but we played okay okay la.........not tat bad.......we tried playing the quiet thing that no one ever knows......okay ah....we got the basics alreadi......den after a tiring jam session.....me n faris went to play soccer with da usual crew........den afta tat lepak kat al-salihinn.....wow....wat a dae.......so tats all.....quite a bz and a tiring dae.......k la peepz....goin to fetch my bro from the airport in a little while.....wow so late alreadi....hahahha.......byez




gerls are human beings too.....so why shud i treat them so lovingly.......haiz........okay i tink rite now they hurt me too much alreadi........wat da fuck la.......they like dunnoe how much you like them and they can just say no as if its a normal ting.....notin special......so you tink ur damn beautiful and can find someone better than me.....i noe la i am not gd looking all tat.........but seriously what da fuck.........tats why todae i played da drums very hard and played soccer kick the damn motherphckin ball hard........gerls are not tat nice u noe........they can hurt you in a split second.........with what they say they can bring u down........i can sense that some gerls just react differently with me.....they just wanna be friends!!!!!!!! hey i like u.......no i just wanna be friends.......gerls have 1001 reasons......they have reasons for everytin........no offence to all females tat are reading my idiotic blog.......i have motherphuckin feelings too........in conclusion i state.........i noe i am lame....i noe i am ugly......gerls just wanna be friends with every ugly guy the meet......but wen they meet sum1 tat is lyk so hensem or cute they will like melt......... stop living in a werld of fantasies......i want a perfect guy.....who is hensem cute sensitive and fun........tere is no such a guy......EVERY SINGLE HUMAN BEING HAS THEIR OWN LACKS.......stop smackin the fact on my face tat i am not what u want.......so fuck off.........



Wednesday, March 02, 2005 >> what are you doing in my head??? why are you calling me when you're dead???

whoa.....hello people........todae is 2march rite??? hmmmm got english oral afta skul......


okay skul was orite.....had a test on poa......the anlaysis method quite challenging man....serious sey.....did not complete it......shit man......haiz......den got da debate during english lesson......trie to convince daryl to have on fridae but his group seriuosly wanted to do todae so in da end we did todae.....obviously we lost.....OBVIUOSLY!!!!! yah den afat skul got house meeting.....waste time......just for signing up for events onli......den afta tat got english oral....afta faiz went for his turn me n rahu cannot stand but to sleep......we slpet for quite awhile den i woke up to see terry was goin out so i woke rahu up....haiz....sleepy sey....da topic boring bout maids!!! but at least i did fine......so happy wit tat.....yah so tats all ah.........tis is todae........quite boring yah.....i noe i am boring.....screw you!!!



juz now went home by taking a bus at da interchange.......everywhere i turn tere must be a couple.....to da right a couple......to da left couple.........haiyoo.......makes me sort of jealous that i hav no one special to be with and to tink about........den inside the bus another couple den rahu wit his gal....another couple.......wat da hell.........fuck man........hate couples........it is like a smack to my face sayin tat i dun hav any.....any means anyone la........haiz........i dun mean to brag but juz speaking my mind....wats havin a blog for if u dun get tings off ur chest......so fuck u all.......i noe tat i am not handsome....i am not good-looking.........i am boring!!! i am lame!!!!!! take me as i am....to everybody out tere!!! take me as i am!!!!! fuck!!!



Tuesday, March 01, 2005 >> new skin.....A7X!!!!!!!

orite.......so bout todae......haiz....tired man todae..........haiz......many tings 2 do........ohhhh man.......orite.......so todae was orite......my tests???? dun want to tok bout it.....it is so dissappointing!!!!! the past eye openers reali made me tink.....haiyooo.........


so todae gt MALAY PAPER COMMON TEST......okay la......paper 1......hope i score.......i want to prove sumtin to filza.......yeah.......okay basically i forgot bout todae....i forgot wat happen......wat i noe is wen i finish my test tere were still time left....and in front of me was a blank fullscap paper and i was holding a pen......so.......did my 'continuos writing lah'........dinee beside was like 'tk da keje sak uat ni'....hahaha.....hey o like writing tis stuff.....of coz all are bullshits but at least it makes me happy....does it??? yes it does.........okay so hopfully 2molo got debate coz i cant stand tinkin bout it animore....seriously.....i hate da debate.....haiz......hate it.........at least we are fpoin to say watever we wanna say then tats it......coz i noe we will lose.....juz want to end it as fast as i could......oritez until here ppl.........


[wat i wrote afta my test]
And i regret all those times
that i've wasted all on you
and i wish and i hope
that i will never feel this way animore......

cause all this feelings are a waste
but why is your name the onli ting that i taste

basically......my heart is dead......my sense of love has died.........my smiles are becoming more fake........dun tink i wanna wait for you animore..............u cant say it.......i dun tink i can feel it.........

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