Sunday, January 30, 2005 >> wat a dae!!!!!

wow.....11:34 pm...juz got home from fie's surprise outin tingy at pasir ris beach.......let me update from fridae oritez......

FRIDAE-acerli notin much reali happened in skul.......den afta skul went back as usual....but i didnt change to ma home clothes to go 4 fridae prayers.......had to wear ma skul uniform.........coz afta tat got da seminar ting at temasek poly....da seminar was borin......it started with da JC speaker......so boring coz my ambition was not goin to da JC so i juz listen for da sake of listening je........den afta tat no mood to listen to da poly speaker.....haiyoo......listen a bit.....da switch slides so fast...no time to read sey.......den wen da university speaker came up to speak...we all left.....university.....so far away sey.........hahhahah....den afta tat decide wat time to meet for tat followin nite......den went home.....lek2 jap....eat....den went out....met da crew at small mc.....den went to coffee bean at paya lebar.....so long nvr go tere....miss it.....den at tere biasa ah.....seme otak tk btol...esp me n rahu....tk tau diam ak....den went back reach home 11+ ah.......okay tats fridae....


SATURDAE - now comes todae....WAT A DAE.....started da dae wit a jam session......it was da best n most tiring.....ferst time sweat dripped down ma face during a jam session......coz we finally got to play only one da song by yellowcard.......many ppl keep goin to our room n listening to us playin da song ONLY ONE....hjahhahahahh.....den afta tat went to long john silvers to eat.......hungry.......den afta tat went to meet amli to da da tingy...arreef n saiful followed also...... faris wanted tio go home....dunnoe why.....den meet amli do da tingy......then meet da others at downtown east.......den walk to da toilet near da waterbreaker where dinee n fie were sittin......then went up to them n surprised fie wit a cake.....so fun....everytin went according to plan........power dok....den afta tat duduk main guitar barinbg seme den me and dinee took a walk......den afta tat faiz join....den ean n rahman join...den afta tat i wanted to be alone......went to da beach n tok to da sea....onli da sea can hear bout me.....den some of da guys keep askin me why i'm like emotional....if u guyz wanna noe ask da sea....onli da sea noes bout it.....den afta tat went home la....the end....wakwakwakwak......


no emo section todae also....coz ma emo section was live todae.....u guyz want to noe bout wat go ask da sea at pasir ris.....n i want to say sori to da guys who were tere durinf fie's surprise tingy....if dey lyk reali wanted to noe n didnt tell u all.....tis is between me da sea n ma heart......no one will noe no one will undastand.....




always da fren..always rejected..always da one waitin..always da one hopin..always luvin u..tis is me..




Thursday, January 27, 2005 >> bingit siolz

From da song:i won't see you tonight(part 1)
Band:Avenged Sevenfold


cry alone,i've gone away
no more nights,no more pain
i've gone alone took all my strength
but i've made the change
i won't see you tonight



okie not goin to tok too much ah.......at skul everytin orite.....we kena change our sitting plan.....mepek sak ho wei wei.....juz gotten comfortable....but now sittin wit jessica....so okay ah.....i still tok a lot.......hahahah.....2dae went back tot not goin to sleep....skali at 5 lyk tat was tired playin da guitar....wanted to rest ma eyes onli but inda end fell asleep....sori guyz who were tokin to me....tk jadi bbual ak.....n yah i change ma song in ma blog......wanted a metal song...but all so bifg da size.....so found da smallest i hav......boring siolz..... k la tats all...in a hurry acerli.....



sorrow,sank deep inside my blood
all the ones around me
i cared for and most of all i love
but i cant see myself that way
please dont forget me or cry while i'm away




Wednesday, January 26, 2005 >> ngantok sak satu hari

Lyrisc from da song:Broken Car
Band:Vanilla Sky


The cd player is running and that is our song
It reminds me of a time gone where now I don't belong
This is my decision We won't meet again
That's the only way in which we can still be friends


haiz.....da most sleepy day ever........from da start till da end of skul i was sleepy in class.......mayb its bcoz i didn't get enuf sleep yesterdae.....slept quite late ah........gt a funny movie.......so skul was quite a drag.....ho wei wei tk abiz mepek.....jumiah lagi.....mak kao.........jumiah sucks.......i want to make it loud and clear.........JUMIAH SUCKS........hatin her man.......so 2dae skul ended at 105......early so notin much happen in skul......afta skul went wit syamir n bakar to fix watch....in da end change their mind......mir nvr bring money acerli....bakar i dunnoe why......okay then took bus home ah from interchange........

Please don't say anything Please don't say a word
I Want to run away instead of fighting against the world
I won't take a step back I won't look back no more
just because I'm scared of how much I felt lost before.



reach home je tot wanna sleep coz was damn sleepy in class.........but tak jadi......afta eatin went to use da comp.....yah.....i reali wanted to put a song in ma blog.....areeff dari dulu smpai skrg tk nk tlg.......alamak!!! den ask zu to teach me how......den at last dpt......put a song from Senses Fail........yah den hapi ah.......den chat chat chat.......6 lyk tat start to do ma hmwrk ah.....started with da malay reflection tingy.......den went on to da POA hmwrk....now want to do physic hmwrk n also study 4 2molos test........so ok la......so ok la......tats all 4 2dae....notin much la acerli.....



No emo section ah....dunnoe wat to write ah....no feeling ah todae........shit!!! but still miss her....want to kol her but so many tings to do.......shit!!! nemind ah....maybe 2molo or sumtin ah......ok la ppl....chiows!!!!



That's a song to say goodbye to a girl that i still love as a friend
I hope she'll understand what I mean




Tuesday, January 25, 2005 >> PE tak dera....wuhoo......

From da song:Lady in the blue dress
Band:Senses Fail

Just like the lady in the blue dress
u've got cigarettes on ur breath
hairspray and cheap perfume
i'll put a little sour in ur sweet
u've got so much fucking tongue in cheek
you want what you could never have


yahoo PE wasn't tat bad n it wasn't tiring as it shud hav been.....ok let me recap for all of you wat happen thru my eyes........wakwakwak........okay i was acerli later than usual todae......dunnoe why ah.....mayb i waste time tot it was still early......but i was still not late for skul......juz late in my usual timing ah........k den blablabla......got stomach ache in da morning....hate it......i hate stomach aches!!!!! den everytin before recess went smoothly.....den da higilight of da day......sec 4 and 5 classes called back to da canteen coz da canteen was not clean.....den we hav to clean it.....but good ah....waste a bit of time for english....hate english....not da subject.....but da teacher......cant undastand her teachings at sum times.....den chemistry lesson....dun want to tok bout it.....hist lesson got a test.....haiyoo no time man.....never plan my strategy properly.........haiyoo.......upset siolz.......den on to PE........had to run den do long jump.....long jump mepek sak...we all joke....den all da other mly guyz join our class coz mahmood dun hav.....lagi mepek jadinyer......4 da ferst time dis year.....PE was not tiring at all.......wish it cud stay like tis....but nex week go bdk reservoir ah.....must run.....like i am gonna.......dun be ridiculous.....den afta PE went home by taking bus ah from interchange.....den kat small mc jumpa restu.....so long never see him......den went home wit faris n syahiran by taking 291......yeah 2dae not tat bad acerli....wow.......




its goin to be 2 months.......its going to be 2 whole months of waiting 4 you.......how much longer r u goin to make me wait???? lyk i said to you....i am willing.......yesterdae tok to u for a very long time.....almost for more than 2 hrs.....enjoyed da chat wit u....u told me a lot of tings......tings tat made me sad.....tings tat made me happy.......but nevertheless.....i will wait.....wait wait n wait......
as da 2 month anniversary of waiting for u is coming.......i will celebrate by waiting summore....wait wait n wait.......mishin ur voice now........


You say that you want respect
well then you better get some for yourself
cause all that i see rite now
is sumone tat is lost and encircled




Monday, January 24, 2005 >> whole day kena bising ngan cikgu2

haiz wat a dae......tis dae is da most mepek dae so far for 2005 in my book.......u noe why??? b'coz da whole dae my name is bein called by teachers a lot of times.......it started with malay class.......lom masuk class je dah kene tegur ngan cikgu filza......masuk class lagi kene tegur......she keep sayin my name.....suka sgt nama aku ni??? she say i'm noisy tis year...i tink soo too......haiz.....wats goin on wit me....den nex teacher to call my name is Ms Ho Wei Wei June!!!! den i hav to switch place with dinee......den 4 all her periods wit us she keep staring at me,amli,n dinee.......hello r we so handsome n pretty tat u cannot see other ppl in da class.....she look at me i look back......dun care bout her animore........den afta a mepek dae in skul......went home......ma dad showed me da fone he found....he using it rite now.........even ma dad got a colour fone......nt get but fonud...but now is his......haiyoo......but dun reali care bout it coz at least i still hav a fone tat can msg ppl shit n call ppl......ok la until here for da recollection section......


okay i am goin to confess sumtin.....i realise tat tis year i hav change to a more noisy person in class....many ppl hav told me bout tis.......n i tink i wanna go back to da Saiful i was last year......quite at times.....never tok tat much........but i need help from u guyz....my frens.......tell me wen i am too loud.....need u guyz to help me realise it......yah so i'm trying...i'm trying.....to change ma attitude in that skul.......guyz remember help me!!!! i want to be da Saiful da Saijoee tat everybody liked!!!!


okay.......its been days since i last heard from u........msg ur fren drg tak reply.......want to kol u but its late n u alwaes sleep early........i need to at least communicate wit u in sumway at least once everyday.......i find myself wishing u here wit me........i am startin to doubt tat u feel da same way.......all my life i've been usin tis phrase a whole ot of times......"feel da same way".....tis has never came true 4 me......n now i am hopin tis again in u....in HER......bcoz i realise tat after all tis waiting,even how much u make me wait.....i wanna be with u....i reali do......i hope u feel da same awww sugar(MCR fans u noe tis line is from wat song).......so am i hoping too much??? am i hoping sumting tat is never coming true???? am i reaching 4 sumthing that wasn't there in da ferst place???


YO PEOPLE READIN MA BLOG.....I CANNOT SEE MA TAG BOARD.....SUMTIN WRONG WIT MA COMP I TINK...SO IF U GUYZ TAG I WUN NOE WAT U TAG......SO TELL ME WAT U TAG K......




Friday, January 21, 2005 >> SeLamat HaRi RayeR AidilAdha.....

My eyes burn from this tears
u tot u learn over this years
good tingz wun last forever


SeLamaT HaRi RayeR AidLaDha to all muslims!!!!!wat are da odds hari raya haji but no shhep???.......apa nk uat kan.....okay.......2dae woke up at 7.....gotta go sembayang.....went to sembayang at da blok near ma sis's house.....went wit Abg Is n ma mom......den wen we were on daway back went to da supermarket buy coke all tat ah........alik je ngantok alik.......but i did not sleep.....went home relax a bit den eat.....ma mom cooked a lot jgk ah....she cooked curry chicken den got ayam masak merah den got daging black pepper n got nasi jagung also.......wow....ok jgk eh......yah den eat.....1230 lyk tat went to da mosque 4 fridae prayers...tgh nk gi sports hall terserempak ngan areef....so went to da mosque with him....outside swimming pool tere meet up wit saiful n zul n zul's cousin.........den afta sembayang zul n his cuz went off ferst.....den saiful went off......den areef wanna go da NOKIA shop at century so i follow him....hey Miz 29 open alreadi ah at Century Square.......den went home wit areef...we took bus numb 8 home....reach home reali dunnoe wat to do sey.....watchin tv 4 awhile ma sis pon arrive.....den she n ma abg ipar lek2 mkn skali......tok2 wit ma mom......den alik.....ehy tiger's teeth is chiiped!!! n snow is gettin naughtier ma sis say....gotta visit them one dae....miss ma cats man.....so long nvr see dier phucking faces.....hahahaha.....snow n tiger gettin cuter sak.....man i'm startin to tok shit again......k la ppl until here la....no emo section 2dae....sori....hahahah....lyk u all care.....



take take everytin
and leave me scrambling
reaching for sumtin that wasnt tere in da ferst place




Thursday, January 20, 2005 >> wrong time to jam!!!

i never said i'd lie and wait forever
if i died we'd be together
i can't always just forget her
but she could try

thursdae!!! 2molo is hari raya aidiladha!!!!no skul!!!! muz go pray in da morning.......so let me recap bout thurdae......at skul was okay some boring parts......was a veri long dae!!!!! tired.....u noe at home i cant write any lyrics but at skul i can......finished burger king gerl n wrote sumtin i juz to fill da void in my heart......i wrote it during math lesson....finished my werk so i juz did some,wat i lyk to call,continous writing wic is basically writing lyrics continously...hahahah.......yah.....den da plan to watch movie was on n set.....so 430 met da guys.....obviously mesti ada org yg lambat kan...went to watch Meet The Fockers......kelakar jgk la zulaiha!!!!! ckp da whole ting not tat funny.....bedek!!!!!yah den me n faris decide bcoz they want to jam so we jam la....7+ meet up wit areef n saiful at small mc n zul also went along....but it turns out to be a bad jamming session....we started playing everytin badly....den semua mcm frustrated sey...i dunnoe wit our playin or each other......den we took a long long break....den faris said to play everytin with more confidence n semangat n to play all songs back to back.....den we played better but still not satisfying......tired playing back to back sey......haiz.....was da worst jam session ever!!!! afta tat no mood animore sey.....no mood to tink bout da band or da music tat we make.....it was horrendous......k tats all ah.....den reach home at 11 at nite....


u r so unpredictable......do u like me or nt????am i hoping too much from u???if tats da case i can step down......is giving u time a gd choice???? so many tings to ask u but wen can i ask??? wen??? u are making tings hard 4 me....i noe i make tings hard 4 u too.....


At the end of the world or the last thing i see
you are never coming home
and all the tings u never ever told me
and all the smiles tat forever will haunt me
you are never coming home
and all the wounds tat are ever gonna scar me
and all the ghosts tat are never gonna catch me




Wednesday, January 19, 2005 >> you r my only my only one!!!!!

if i cud only stop the car
i hold on onto you
and never let you go
i'll never let you go


19-1-05.........wat happen 2dae......notin much as usual......but i was in a hapi mood!!! salam n huggued all ma frenz wit da biggest smile i hav....dey all tot i was crazy........hahaha....read ma last post n u noe why i am so damn happy!!!!happy as can be ah dolz!!!!bt ma hapi mood ended wen ferst period came into session.......haiyoo....ho nvr come n ouh ling ling relief us....she gave werk 2 do....da wrksheet was so damn bored ma hapi mood flew away...den afta tat poa ok ah.....english....fuyoh...bored lyk hell...laugh also ah but bored lyk hell......last period laughed da most....mansor took over.....so funny n mepek in da same time......den afta skul gt class meeting....stupid shit i dunnoe wat daryl told me to do....didn't bothered to ask.....mls siolz......wen home je.....so tired......den apa lagi tdo ah bdh!!! dunnoe wat time woke up....den go toilet see ma face den relax a bit n den eat.....den played comp until now......tats a review of ma dae ppl....

listening to emo songs..........


crushes come n go....mine is gone.....not knowin wen it will come bck....of course i still care bout her......but at least i noe wats happening bout tats enuf.......now she's aside.....bout HER.....man......reali lykin HER more every single dae....is tat normal????she's alwaes in my mind....dunnoe why....in skul at home everywhere.......wow....i'm a sick freak!!!!! wat am i suppose to do now tat i luv u......wow tats a gd line to made from ma head....gotta remember tat line......acerli 2dae had da feeling wanted to write some lyrics coz i feel teres a need to but dunnoe wat to write...nemind....juz make up short lines its enuf for now....lyk i juz did.....wakwakwakwak....i'm startin to tok shit again....shit......ok la it ends here!!!!


And i don't want to speak these words
Cause i don't want to make things any worse




Tuesday, January 18, 2005 >> prank tat sucked but i appreciate it.....

Hand in mine into ur icy blues
N then i'd say to you we cud take to da highway
with this trunk of ammunition too
i'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets


ok.......skul was orite ah......but da fatrenoon was a torture.....u noe y??? bcozi had PE....i noe ow wants us to be fit n all but.....man......he made it lyk torture....dera aku....but at the other hand....it was a great exercise 4 me.....yeah gopt to agree wit tat....dunnoe la.....good or bad....good 4 me but nt in my mind.....wakwakwakwak.....wat da phuck i'm tokin bout.......dunnoe la.....den went back from PE so damn tired sey.....hai yoo.....tk ble angkat dolz......went home wit faris......dlm bus pnat maut sak.....wakwak.....kiter bbual pon mcm tk larat nk bbual.........hahahha....yah den went home tk tdo ah coz gt tings to do....den went home jer lek ferst......den bath.....den fresher a bit....went to play comp......den tis is where da mepekness comes in....


tis is emo section also ah ppl......HER fren msged me....we got off tokin.....den she sae she lyk me.....i was reali sayin wat da phuck....den blablabla nt telin da whole stori.....den in da end i said no coz of obvious reasons......den she told me to kol.....skali conference wit HER n dis fren tat 'lyk' me n her other fren......haiyoo....i was so embarassed.....dey acerli played a prank on me to see if i am loyal......tis is lyk a test i hav to go thru to get to HER......but in da end at last i got to speak wit her on da phone n hooray......so da prank turned outt to be sumtin gd 4 me......wakwakwak

I'm tryin,i'm tryin
to let you noe just how much you mean to me
and after all the tings we put each other thru




Monday, January 17, 2005 >> so long nvr post....now its time!!!!

okay ppl....i'm bck....i juz recap wat i did on saturdae laso ah eh.....k simple stori........went to queensway wit ma bros....abang Is n abang Rid.......bcoz it was ma b'dae abang is weant to blanja me anitin i want at queensway....wow.....so nice of him....da whole journey i keep on msgin wit HER....gerek dolz....hati lega all da way msg ngan dier....den reach tere dunnoe wat to buy sey....mostly sportin stuff.....den walk walk walk....den met wit a shop...owner pakcik.....he slod band tshirts n many kinds of t shirts ah....den i saw FROM AUTUMN TO AHSES tshirt....cnfrm must buy....i bought tat shirt n a baseball T...all abg is paying ah.....relek je aku beli benda....den at 6 quickly meet da guyz n played soccer....den lelek kat Saffron mcm biasa....den went home...MAN UTD WON!!!! dats saturdae.....

sundae notin much happen ah....Spore won onli.....k tats for sundae hahaha.....so short sundae......



k den 2dae.......mondae.....17-01-05.........at skul....skul was fine.....gave dinee da free rollercoaster ride for disturbing me....hahahaha...padan muka!!!! yah everytin was fine.....4 once i was okay....nt tinkin bout da persons i dun want to tink about a lot......so notin much happen ah basically......went home msgin HER a bit.....lega hati lagi aku ni.,.....dah tk btol!!! yah....den went home...relax, ate did all da stuff i hav to do....played comp.....n now writin tis post....wow time sure flies wen ur heart feels so good....k tats so incorrect........apa lagi aku lom bbual pasal.....i tink tats basically it.....shit 2morrow gt PE.....i'm so dead....hate PE.......

now to ma emo section again.......

u noe ppl.....frenz reali can cheer u up....bt sumtimes u cant depend on them all da time coz u r da onli one tat cn cheer urself up on da inside........since saturdae.......i tok to her a whole lot.....n i tink tat da cursed crush is fading....bt NO....its still tere.....bt now i cn turn tis cursed crush into a frenship.....so onli 4 2 dae......I'M OKAY!!!! onli 4 one dae onli....i tink n i hope......

cursed crush-u r tere...u r everywhere......i cn never erase u from ma eyes or ma mind......bt at least i can contain my feelings 4 u......i still care bout u though i doubt u feel da same way.....bt at least i noe u r tere its enough....

HER-wen cn our dae come.....u are so unpredictable......one minute its tis another is tat....bt da way u speak to me u make me realise how much i want 2 be wit u afat all of tis.....ur frens hav told me a lot bout u.....now i'm juz waitin every single dae 4 u.....juz waitin....waitin ....n waitin....hope u wun dissappoint me.....






Thursday, January 13, 2005 >> notin much!!!!!!!

k here i am..........acerli tot nt goin to post....but i juz post sumtin ah b4 i go study for ma chem test.....kk at skul was orite.....bastard arep wit a single bad joke.....sori ah areefff.........yah den ok ok......den usik amli plak....lama plak tu.....want to noe i disturb him bout wat??? ask him or dinee....dey noe...i sit beside them,..........rabak maut nye.....but lucky amli tk amik hati......hahahah
padan muka amli...lek ah juz jokin ah........den afta skul went to AVA 4 tat ting ah....mepek je....waste time.........den afta tat went home.....ngah lek2 dngr lagu emo...........SHE msged.....haiz.....sdap jgk hati aku dier msg.....msged 4 awhile from 330 till 415 coz she gt meeting afta tat....sedih.........gd news ah from her....i realise tis wk...all her msgs gt gd news behind it....wat am i tokin...u all undastand undastood ah....yah k......now i wanna study 4 ma chem.....hahahah.....


cursed crush VS Her.........haiz.....wats wrong wit me???? i dunnoe wat da hell is wrong wit me......i want to kill da crush but i cant.......i see her every single dae......wat am i suppose 2 do??? i was suppose to love u!!! how can i show u how much u mean to me???? u r here.....she is tere......so wat must i do??? emo songs da onli ting tat can make me realise wat shit i am goin thru rite now......n i wud lyk to thank DINEE 4 pesterin me bout makin a blog....coz tis is where i can write da werd shit alot n let ppl noe tat wenever i smile or laugh,sumtimes deep inside,its juz to cover up da shit tat i am goin thru inside....i noe u all may tink tat i'm stupid n tat i am makin tings hard 4 maself....but i chose tis life......if u all r readin tis n u tink i'm a el hijo de una ramera....suit urselves.....its by tis way i am Saiful,Saijoe,n by wat name u wanna kol me by......

tis is da most emotional....wait nt emotional.......emotionally charged post.....n if u tink tat i am juz tokin crap or i am crap......dun tell me bout it....i dun want to noe......4 ma crush.....hate u but luv u.....4 her,will u tink of me tonite????




Wednesday, January 12, 2005 >> tot i cant concentrate but wit ma crew...notin is impossible

12 of january 2005.....chey nk step formal ajer.........hahahahaha........ok ah.....2dae nt bad.....ngantok je.....n all da shit i tot bout yesterdae was still in ma mind n was still bothering me eventhough i didn't show it.....skul was roite ah as a whole...saw dinee's design 4 da class t shirt....veri nice sey...i tink tat wud b da choice coz da others da design to me nt tat gd la.....no offence ah u other guyz in ma class.......hahahaha........k la notin much happen la 2dae.....didnt laugh lyk hell lyk i usually do....sakit hati gaknyer.....den got home tros tdo sey....pnat sgt....tak cukup tdo gaknye........sleep 4 2hrs je.........yah tats all i tink.........4 2dae......

listen to emo songs again....especially demolition lovers by My chemical romance!!!!!! man i am addicted 2 da song....listening to it rite now......hahahahaha

i luv u!!! do i???? tis isma cursed srush tat is nvr goin away.......why must i alwaes see u everyday!!!!! the more i see u da more i cant 4get u........u r so beautiful thru my eyes......why she nvr msg 2dae...nemind she bz....hahaha.....by da way ppl who readin tis.....wen i sae she.....i'm nt referrin to ma gf coz she's juz a fren.......coz reality check.......who wants me???? seriously???? why must love be tis way 4 me???





Tuesday, January 11, 2005 >> tired dae.....hapi dae....confusin dae....

hey hey hey!!!! its me again....hahahahah.........2dae is tuesdae 11/01/05......skul was okay 4 da whole dae....until eng period.....jumiah told me to pronounce da werd love correctly......i did pronounce it correctly but den she mocked me in a way tat is funny n i started laughin lyk hell....den da whole class was laughin bcoz of ma laughter...hey at least i lifted da class spirit....hahahaha.....den humanities period was so borin.......she kept tokin n tokin but i undastood wat she said except 4 da last part coz i was so sleepy........den went home n immediately i was on top of ma bed....was so tired........but i got up at 245 coz gotta go 4 PE....mepek sey PE in da afternoon.......nonsense.......see!!! i told u PE wit ow is lyk helll.....we gotta run a lot n do sit ups....haiz....but i lost 8 kg.....hapi sak........for me nt to all of u........den afta PE went bck by taking da bus at da interchange......den as i was walking ma hp received a msg.....it was her.....for tat moment i was smiling lyk hell......nice tat she msged......den reach home n took a bath......afta tat switch on da comp....watch tv n chat 4 awhile....den at 8 pm i lost ma mood to chat....sori guyz who wanted to chat wit me....lost ma mood completely.......haiz


lost ma mood coz i realised tat my crush is never goin away....eventhough how much i tried.......i tot i nvr love u animore....bt ur visions keep knockin on my door.......tis is why i hate crushes.......dey make me confuse......why must tis feelings come bck??? i tot i buried them!!!!!!! shit.....damn....shit....shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n yah i keep listening to emo songs again n again....n i kepp coughin.........haiz....hope she will msg me again 2molo.....n 4 ma crush tat is nvr goin away.....i dunnoe wat to say animore.....all ma laughter is just to cover up ma broken heart all da rejection all da shit i am feelin all tis while.........shit keeps happening to me!!!!!

I WISH TAT I JUST CUD KISS YOU GDBYE.....BCOZ I NVR TOT I STILL HAV FEELINGS 4 U.....WHY AM I STILL WANTING YOU????




Monday, January 10, 2005 >> want to join kompang or nt ah???

haiz wat a dae....MONDAE.....10-01-2005........skul dae ah.....borin.......in skul wat happen???? notin much happen....during malay class cikgu filza ask who want to join mcc and be da kompang den me,ariff and zul lyk wanted to join....zul back out ferst coz fridae was da practice n he got religious class so cannot go...me n ariff tot bout it da whole dae....i still dunnoe....i hav ma doubts of joining.....sumbody help me decide!!!!!!!!! den afta recess,i 4got wat period ah.....da guys gav me ma b'dae prez......it was a mesh cap....very nice sak!!! to me ah dunnoe to others.....(ma bro say lyk mat,to hell wit him)......hapi sak u all gav me tat prez.....frenz 4 life sak wit u guyz......n yah ma PE on tuesdae wit ow......sak ah.....confirm PE like hell wit ow....DERA SAK AKU!!!!....die!!!! den afta skul,it was rainin,had a class meeting wit da other main membaz,......haiyo many disagreements.....den went to da old foyer meet da others....wait for awhile than fed up coz da rain not stoppin den everybody wanted to go home so we all WALIKING IN the rain!!!! YAH........den went home ma bro saw da cap n u noe wat he said.....den at 4+ i slept until 6......tired sak....dunnoe wat i did tat made me tired.....yah den watch THE SIMPSONS den chat n do ma hmwrk.......now nearly going to be 10 pm....gonna stop usin da comp or ma bro n me will hav da wrong vibe again....

N yah da whole dae i listen to all emo songs....i dunnoe wats up wit 2dae but i feel so emotional.....tinkin bout ma life.......tinkin bout da gerl who i hope will tink of me sumdae.....ma crushes(ppl dun tink i'm lame juz bcoz i hav crushes).......i hate crushes!!! dey make me do stupid tings...dun tink tat a guy doesnt hav crushes ppl!!!!!!.....why doesnt anybody like me??? i dun undastand....why am i left alone with no one to be found??? well tis is ma life.....tats why i am JOEI NOT GETTIN ANY ROMANCE.......




Sunday, January 09, 2005 >> sunday boring dae n its nt tat sunny....due to tsunami....haiz...

i wud want to start by remembering da tsunami tragedy.....
wow......wat a tragedy i must say.....see how much damage.....ni seme tuhan nyer kuasa......its a sad way to start da new year.....god bless da survivors n all those who has lost their lives due to tis devastating tragedy....

ok....todae is a sundae......a dae wic is acerli set so tat u cn spent time wit ur family....i woke up at 10...wow quite early sey....BUT.....i didnt get off of bed....
i woke up at 10 n realise i can not get up off bed and so luckily ma discman was beside me....i listen to MCR n F.A.T.A.....until 12....den i get up off bed.....went out of ma room n see wat ma family membaz were doin....seme nga tgk tv sak...apa angin seme tgk tv 2gether????den as usual went to take a bath.....wakwakwak.....obviously......den change ma blog nyer skin....cari my chemical romance nye at last dapat....YEA!!!! Fie jelez!!!!!hahahahah...den went gi kedai beli vanguard coz kene uat duty roster....borin!!! den get bck je tros start ah.......tk nk waste time....dah uat,by da wat da duty roster is very ugly sori la i'm nt an artist......afta tat do more werk on ma blog....kul 7 je apa lagi tgk THE SIMPSONS!!!! den tgh tgk ma sis kol coz she comin over....dah lama jgk tk nmpk dier....kul 745 je she arrived....n guess wat!!! she brought MURTABAK N MEE HOON GORENG!!!!! den she,me,ma bro,ma dad n ma mom seme duduk kat living room mkn sambil tgk ACE VENTURA....tgh tgk kelakar kan seme ketawa relek n i was da onli one ketawa rabak sey....bt dey tk tegur coz dey noe ma laugh mcm gini...mcm kat skul jgk!!! den afta ma sis went home i go switch on da comp again n den wanna post wic is wat i'm doin now.....hahahahha........yah so tis is ma dae.....quite borin i gotta admit.....n yah watch pimp my ride....nt gonna miss tat show man.....dey gotta to pimp ma ride......wakwakwak...k i noe i'm lame(kental).......

by da way....da whole dae me n ma bro nt at a gd vibe......nvr tok a lot to each other....bt now its okay.....everytins okay.....bt i promise.....i'm not okay!!!!!! k la 2moro skul ah....shit....havent pack ma bag......c ya guys....do tag a lot.........




Saturday, January 08, 2005 >> ma ferst post!!! wow~ amazing~

Its me Saiful Joe!!!! N i hav a blog!!! wow......amazing.....i dunnoe why i did a blog....ni seme dinee ah!!!! but sumtimes i see ppls blogs,i also jealous ah....so how bout i make one.......hahahahaha....get readi ppl to read about my life....hahaha....k wat i did on 8-01-05????? da ans is notin..... i woke up at 12......check ma hp.....i dunnoe da number bt i noe da person....it was huda.....she said her fren told her tat i wanted her to msg me.......wen did tat happen....of course i was happy she msged but,no warning sey!!!!hahah....den syamir msg ask bout whether da plan to watch a movie was on.....den he say he cannot go....den why ask mir???? den khalis msg me....say if i cn go watch movie....i gt money from ma mom so i said i cn go...hahaha....den one hour later he say cancel coz many ppl can not go.....ler...den i was hungry coz ma mom havent cook....ma bro wanted to go to da shop coz ma mom ask him to so i followed n buy food la...mite as well rite.....den chat wit ppl afta i ate....den watch singapore's match...dey won!!!!!!! 3-1!!!!yah...den i am here....writing ma ferst post....n yah i dl From Atumn To Ashes' video live in london....they rock man!!!!!

ok la diz is ma ferst post...issit long???? nemind ah...kk nitez ppl!!!! god bless!!!!
JoeiRomance outt

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Name: Saiful Johan Sukri---
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