Saturday, April 29, 2006 >>

go to deathofabeautyqueen.blogspot.com........ that's my new blog!!!! go there!!! this is the past!!!!



Sunday, March 19, 2006 >> bikini heaven!!!!!!

yeah..... wassuupp dudes??? hope your oright doing anitin u may be doing now........ so today has been a really great day i must say....... went to Sentosa with my two bros, my sis n my bro-in-law............ acerli went there to celebrate his bdae n my bro's bdae..... HAPPY BERTHDAY THE BOTH OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!! so woke up like 10 in the morning.... we started to go there at about 10 plus.... mcm lambat je to me........ but okay..... but today was a bit cloudy!!!!!! how to sun tan..........HAHHAHAHAH.......... so reach there bout i don't know what time lah..... went to pahlawan beach..... okay i dunoe how to spell it but hope it's right........

so after parking the car.... we took our stuff and find an empty table to put our food and our stuffs basically..... we found one wic was a great spot......... so reach there,the ferst thing we had to do was......... EAT THE CHOCALTE TRUFFLE CAKE FROM THE ROYALS......... coz it was a hot day n the choc was melting.. so ate that ferst......... the cake was sensational........ the chocalate was so rich in flavour......muah! magnafic..... den had pizza!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my sis n bro made....... all the food we brought was home made....... pizza is good!!!!!!! den had some mee hoon goreng and chicken!!!!!!! end it all with apples!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank u to my sis for cooking all of it!!!!!!!!! so after that we sat for about an hour beforte swimming.........

so after an hour we all splash into the waters....... but before i forget.......... let me say this....... IT WAS BIKINI HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! beautiful bods........... the gerls were hot....... muah.... magnafic! ok i don't want to sound sick now............ so spent a lo0t of time swimming......... pictures being taken.. at 5 we started packing............ den head to the car before going to have a look at siloso beach................ den we saw this like a sort of go kart. me n my bros decided to go for it............ it was fast..... we bang each other......... i passed my bro with style........ it was fun! i was second out of the three of us.... yeah we raced............ so den ate some new zealand ice cream n sat at coffee bean for awhile............. after that we head home.. was tired so i slept in the car......... hahhahahha..........

yeah i gotta say that i'm a bit surprise....... for the ferst time i like being 18.... apart from the movies and smoking and other shit........ my bros treat me now like an adult..........letting me do what i wanna do.......... nvr to nag. they wud just say..... okay........... n the whole day with them..... they were like my frenz........ yes the way i tok to them is still respectful but it felt like we were just normal frenz hanging out looking at beautiful bods......... they are my bros ..... they've been there for me so much.......... we never leave anyone behind!!!!!!! \m/ \m/



Saturday, March 11, 2006 >> can't you live without the attention...

i gotta say what i gotta say.... and i swear i'll never go away...... but now..... i will........ people have their own opinions...... they are entitled to their own opinions...... i had time to think about stuff while i was waiting for my next flight....... some things just ran thru my mind like a high speed train..... and i just felt the need to write it.... coincidetally i had only my hp to use as paper...... i tot you wud just read for the sake of reading.... that msg wasn't an indication that i wanted you back....... it was just to make you realise that i was stilll alive.......... it was like a week since i last msged u.... i just wanted to let u know i'm still breathing......... the msg was emoish..... i know..... it's me!!!!!!! you know how emoish i can get!!!!! now fine okay........ u wanted this so bad... u want peace at last........ u got what you deserve......... u will get what u want.... hope you're just happy as you're pretending........ and you know what the worst thing was....... the way that u said it...... ferstly you sound like a totally diff person..... you weren't the person who i spent hours talking to before........ maybe people do change as they grew older....... but some people don't!!!!!!!!!! some people would stick to what they are now!!!!!!!! you are so different now.... and it's only 2 months........ suit urself..... if you happen to read this good..... if you aren't..... too bad...... remeber this 2 words....... you said that to me so many times......... TOO BAD............. and for whateva trouble i put you thru i'm sorry aite.......i believe in being a gentleman.... i apologise for any wrongdoings....... and when i'm writing this post i can only remember one malay-indon song wic it's chorus starts by this sentence....."maafkan aku menduakan cintamu"...... so there you go princess.........


yah so lately just been working........ work work n work to get money to buy things for poly!!!!!! my wish list isn't over.........wahahhahhah.......... it ends when i say it ends........ so actually i'm feeling a bit down... with a sickness i mean... i think flu ah........ man i hate it.. den this morning when i sneezed blood came out too........ i was like....shit......... but i guess it's because of the weather..... it's been really hot these days......... so yah i think i have nothing much to say........ just in total shock and just counting what i have.... coz i dun want to lose anything animore...... maybe a couple of things........ hahhahahah..... peace dudes......



Monday, March 06, 2006 >> i feel like i am born again...

I FEEL LIKE I AM BORN AGAIN..... I FEEL A LOT BETTER THAT WHAT I USED TO FEEL.......


so today i went out with faris,ariff and saiful...... went to orchard coz i wanna shop.... n let me tell you one dirty little secret........i have never shop with only me and my friends or using money me myself work for.... the satisfaction is much more better...... i bought A BEG!!! NEW SLIPPERS!! AND A T SHERT!!!!!!!! wakakkakakka........ but this is not the end........

things left before poly starts.....

1.new shoes.....
2.rokok......
3.more clothing........

wakakkakaka...... i'm in a very good mood now.... if u want me to belanja u rite now i wud..... but nt tmr..... only right now.......... hahhahaha...... happy people i am happy........


okay i feel much better........better than this past months......... i got my confidence back...... got my sanity back....... i feel like i'm reborn.......... a new breath of life........ so right now i'm going to be who i wanna be....... an average guy who goes around doing his business........ yeah he smokes but can be nice if u let him to..... he can help u if u ask......... if u wanna kol his style like a matrip...... he wud probably say ur wrong... he wears wat he tinks is nice..... he styles the way he tink is nice..... in heart he still is a guy who loves metal music and emocore....... who listen to hard songs!!!!! but can compromise to slower songs too....... i am who i am before.......... but no more being such a nice guy...... my temper can change at anitime..... so this is the new me....... chilling wen required......... yeah.........



Friday, March 03, 2006 >> Nightmare it is for me....

Okay okay......let me shout this one time....... cause i can't shout out loud at home now some people are still sleeping........ here it goes..........



I'M GOING TO NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC!!!!!!!!!!

TAKING ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALHAMDULILAH I GET TO GO TO A POLYTECHNIC!!!!!!!!!

so there it goes.......... so can't wait to meet new people..... explore somewhere other than the east side....... been schooling here, been living here for as long as i can remember........... so i'm just thankful for what i have lah....... so yeah this is just an update on my life......... peace.........



just go and be happy........ just go........ i can't stop u.......... i can't force you not to go....... u have the right to choose who u wanna be with and n be happy with.......... i'm left behind yes........ but let me be......... i'm helpless....... i'm hopeless........ i'm so down so kick me.......... kick me when i'm down!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!! kick me!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!


I'm missing your bed
i never sleep
avoiding the spots where we have to speak
and this bottle of beast is taking me home

i'm cuddling close
to blankets and sheets
but your not alone
your not discreet
make sure i know who's taking you home

i'm reading your note over again
but there's not a word that i comprehend
except when you signed it
"i will love you always and forever"

well as for now i'm gonna hear the saddest songs
and sit alone and wonder
how you're making out
but as for me, i wish i was anywhere
with anyone making out

i'm missing your laugh
how did it break
and when did your eyes begin to look fake
i hope you're happy as your pretending

i'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
i am alone
in my defeat
i wish i knew you were safely at home

i'm missing your bed
i never sleep
avoiding the spots where we have to speak
and this bottle of beast is taking me home

your hair!!! it's everywhere!!!!!
screaming infedelities!!!
and taking it's wear

maybe thru this song u guyz might have an idea on how i must be feeling rite now....... coz u can't imagine how hurting i must feel now........ only through songs like this it keeps me quiet and calm.......




Saturday, February 25, 2006 >> The nameless

well well well...... here i am again..... well been working this past few days.... eventhough my eye is still red like blood...... it doesn't itch neither is it painful.... so acerli it's just red...... haiz.... but alhamdulilah lah that it's just a minor thing, thankful that it didn't harm my vision........ if not, i can't see the beautiful people around me......

welll like i said been working lately... that's all been doing after 3 days of off days and sitting at home waiting for my eye to be okay.......... work is alright,just it's very irritatin when one of ur team member is slow like hell.... i gotta say i'm not tat fast either but at least try ur best to do it fast lah...... show some semangat owang kata........ if u show me effort i won't scold u lah.... but i alwaes hve to do your work for you... den my work how??? haiz.....show effort lah gendeng!!!! kalo nk aku uat keje kao... kasi aku sikit gaji kao..... uat keje termenung2.,.... tersengih2..... apahal tah bdk ni....... okay okay i am frustrated for no reason........ a mth to go and i dun have to see her face animore!!!!!!!!! wakkakkaka........ k tats werk for ya.......

well i gotta say.........i love my family eventhough sometimes they make me do this do that..... they are the ones who has been keeping me sane and stable in life........ i guess without them, i don't know what i'll do...... hehehehe..... especially my mom!!!!! hahhahaha........

but yeah still not over everything that has happen in my life........ taking every single day slow and steady....... hoping along the way i won't crumble and fall........ and i wanna say something........ GO AND TRY TO HEAR THE SONG "THE NAMELESS" BY SLIPKNOT OKAY??!! read the lyrics too....... it means something.... well..... can't complain much about life cause this is life....... whether you want to get over things or not, you just have to live each day with some hope.... hope that some day.... things will get back on track.... things wud be gd again....... so adious amingos....... see you in another time yah........ take carez........





Tuesday, February 21, 2006 >> MOVING ON!!!!!

hey ho guyz....... i noe i've not been updating lately.... been down this past few days..... don't want to talk to anybody or go out or have fun....anything like tat.... i wasn't in a mood for.... but now.... yeah i'm back and moving on...... a bit different in terms of character but yeah........ so actually been doing nothing much except working everyday..... why??? to earn some cash and to fill my time with something.........


so actually i'm not working today..... not going to work for 3 days!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!! i'm down with an eye infection..... had to wear shades just to cover up my eye...... it's so red.... and it's like blood type of red.... so my eye is completely red with only the center dark brown..... was already kanchiong tis morning when i realised my eye was in this condition........ haiz....... just my luck....... but what the hell........ just don't let things get the better of me....... and actually one thing i like bout my eye rite now is the concept of a "bleeding eye" and "tears of blood"...... coz when my eye drops were packing upon my eye....i thought it was blood.... but that won't happen....... so yah that's my condition now....... man its so irritating and such a spirit breaker........ but like i said what the hell..........

haiz..... what a life i have yah..... girls...... work....... friends....family....... school......... music.........
life goes on as i lose someone special.......... things can get better i guess..... dark will turn to light one day....... TO ME YOU WERE MY SOUL COMPANION!!!!!!!! just let her go god damn it people are getting irritated with u...... acerli no one has ever said that to me...just me telling myself..... so goodbye..... moving on!!!!!!!! MOVE ON!!!!!!!!

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Name: Saiful Johan Sukri---
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School: Going to Ngee Ann Poly---

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